swimming in the sciences.

Today, as I anticipate I will also be in the future, I am swimming in the sciences.
It may be a good thing, but I will keep my fingers crossed anyway.
I have never felt this challenged, which was something I was looking for. I know that in order to succeed, I will have to be top snuff. Otherwise, I simply will not cut it.
In former courses of study, I have felt entitled, someone so gifted in a particular area that everyone, including professors, should bow down before my incredible mental prowess.
As I have grown older I realize that I must have looked preposterous to those who intellectually towered over me. However, at the time, I thought I was truly something of a prodigy.
In the sciences, I do not have the background, god given ability, or terrible approach that has made my education an easy to course up to this point in my life.
I was timid in my classrooms today, not the usual brash student with nothing to say but an exceedingly loud voice. I just sat, and concentrated, and wondered to myself: "Can I really do this?"

The simple answer is yes. I have yet to meet an obstacle I can not over come through diligence and perseverance, but I do know that this will not be an easy task. There will be no faking anything, I do not have the base of knowledge to make a fool of myself.
There will have to be hours of note taking, memorizing, reading and comprehending to over come these challenges.
I hope I have it in me. I suppose I do. I am honestly scared. Maybe. I don't know. I am excited for the challenge, but still wary of the consequences. For the first time in my life I do not know if I am smart enough, mature enough, ready enough to beat something.
I think that is what will make me succeed. It is refreshing to have something new, something unlearned, to dive head first into. I only hope the depth of my limitations is not shallower than the plunge of my ambition.

Maybe I should be working now, or now, or now. Maybe I should set more time aside later today. Tomorrow. The next day. Establishing a routine that I can sync into for success would help. I need to avoid distractions. It is imperative that I stay ahead.

I need some luck.

Bio-Chemistry may be the hardest thing I have ever chosen to do.
I hope I am ready.