angels and ambassadors

posed against a rural skyline, not the wide open stars of a blanket sky, but one complete with housing developments and an old semiforgotten river, i found something tonight. i wasn't anything of concrete value, or a realization that can comfort future generations who will inhabit this floundering planet, but it mattered under this unkempt face. each night i find myself wandering the half filled streets with a half empty soul of this town which i once called home, and tonight was no distinguishable exception. as i exited my seemingly abandoned residence and began to crusade through an upper middle class neighbor hood, all while a cigarette was firmly secured between my lips, i spilled syllables out to myself in a raspy voice explaining how i ended up on this crusade of sorts. i began to contemplate the simple fact that i am drowning in this misery because i have so chosen. as freinds fled like sparrows from burning trees i stood watch, trying to extinguish and restore things to their once shimmering grandure, whilst behind my back everything marched on uneffected and unaltered. i have been bonding myself to something that can not be tied down, something so free it can not be tampered with or changed. i have been trying to oppress and contain the human spirit for so many months, i had lost sight of what i had originally envisioned. the only suitable course of action is to let the reigns go loose and forge for some uncharted and unblemished landscape. a place where the stars hang down and meet the horizon. i am searching for a new set of eyes to lose myself in, and a new hand to grasp and hold tightly. i am smiling, ear to ear, i am holding a grin so big angles and ambassadors should be jealous. tonight i found something unescapeable. tonight i found peace.