it's 11:10 and i'm wishing for spring

"there has to be a place better than this in heaven."

i just don't understand why the human concept of thought demands that we constantly long for things we don't have. 2pac said those words when he recorded thugz mansion in 1994. he was on top of the world, and yet not content. somedays i think all i need in life is a little green, a 40 of but heavy, a pack of reds, and a deck, just free from the dreams that make everyone convulse and twitch in the dark. then there are the moments where i want it all, the entire world, a meterial vision that makes me sick. why are we programmed to think this way? no one needs 249,999 dollars a year, a house with nine bedrooms, or six cars to survive. it's all a weak concept. i think it will all be so much more clear when the winter passes and the life returns to my bones. everything so much easier when the weather finally breaks allowing the ability to pass time in places other than in front of artificial monitors. i want to walk on the green grass and just pass the day. it's 11:10 and i'm wishing for spring. i hope it works.




listening to:
"Thugz Mansion NY" - Nas
"My Book of Rhymes" - Nas
"Star Wars" - Nas
"Tick Tock" - Alchemist
"Mo' Money, Mo' Murder" - Nas