you might be the light.

pages turn as the seasons change and the factor that stays the same is you. always just out of reach next to the hourglass. close enough to matter and yet far enough to meander in the shadows. let's put down roots and you can sleep beside me. i'm attempting to sleep haphazardly, but you keep pacing through the tracks of my mind, disturbing the sand man in his monotonous work. you make me comfortable, like a porch by the sea. there is no inconvenience in you, there's no pulsing urge to be different, better. i just want to calmly grow old with you, and as we watch the years go by we can comment on how we thought things would be s different. right now, i look at the world and consider myself the most meaningless part, just a clove of grain in a sun-drenched field. consistency. i want nothing more for the sun to kiss my skin in the daylight while you kiss my lips at night, sleeping with the ocean keeping the record player company. it's one forty six, and the sleep at the corners of my eyes has been building and then falling through all evening, as perplexing as your name on my lips, slowly being turned over as i try to figure out what exactly it means. i feel like i've been driving the car in the game of life as some child, covered in cheeto dust and grape juice, numbly spins the wheel and moves my plastic chariot around the board. i keep arriving and then leaving, a ghost in the shadows trying to find some light. you might be the light. i just need to pull you closer.


now playing:
history of lovers - iron & wine and calexico
the animals were gone - damien rice
slow dancing in a burning room - john mayer
the lake - antony and the johnsons
all i need - radiohead
loneilily - damien rice
i wish that i was beautiful for you - darren hanlon