cover me, breathing water

happiness for me is outlined with three common factors, a cup of semi-warm sugarfilled coffee, a shabby flannel bathrobe, and calrity by jimmy eat world slowly churning out sentimental structure in the background. right now i find myself at an impass, a distance neither here nor there, with many decisions to be painstakingly made. i could walk the path down near the river bank, the passionate, unkempt dream. just as easily i may walk the opposite direction and haunt the city streets for the upcoming years, cloaked in safety, watching the world transgress through a black and white television set. this is not easy, this is not hard, it is somewhere stuck in a purgatory, a previously untraveled distance. i'm standing on the edge of living, and just watching the waves preparing to crash from either side. am i ready? am i strong enough? no time to prepare the defenses, it's just a race to which tide will rise quicker, which sea will cover me, breathing water, lost to the rush.