mimic.

(because your idea made me envious, i have decided to also compile my thoughts about our favorite broken heart and the subsequent work it has produced.)

lua - this song has been my constant comfort over the last few years. when cold weather hits for the bleakest of seasons, "i'm wide awake, it's morning" does not leave my player for the compiling months until the sun thaws my face again. this song i have a connection to. every word, every line, every second hits me deep in the chest. it is a song that can suffocate me each and every time.

an attempt to tip the scales - tear soaked, hyperventilating, screaming in the car music. "so we trade liquor for blood...(i could simply type the rest.)" there were so many hear broken nights where this song was played back to back with haligh, on constant repeat. this is a song i will always hear and remember a time when i felt so alive.

haligh - i wrote this song in my own blood on a wall when i was sixteen. as far as i know, in that ancient house, in that decrepit crawl space, it is still there as a testament to both youthful ignorance and the loneliest time i had known. "you'd always be there, well where are you now?"

take it easy (love nothing) - "i must have looked like a ghost because something frightened me, and since then i've been so good at vanishing." this song still gives me chills, up and down my back and all the way through my smallest fingers.

june on the west coast - this is your song. you obviously know why. you keep me here as much as you make me want to run. "if all these years of searching find one sympathetic face, it's there i'll plant these seeds and make my home." you must realize, once your heart starts beating, the song doesn't end, it continues. there is atonement, and then, after all the trials and tribulations, it does in fact all work out. "i thought about my true love, the one i really need, with eyes that burn so bright they make me pure."

we are nowhere and it's now - one day, driving on icy roads not too long ago, this song connected with me like the others for the first time. that's the thing about conor, sometimes, you're just not quite ready for what he is going to say, and then, when you are, he already put it on a record. this song is what i feel like i have become. this song captured me, and i'm still being held hostage. "stuck between a past and future town."

sunrise, sunset - the inspiration for the greatest conversation i have had with michael. "and everybody knows it's all about the things that get stuck inside your head."

arc of time (time code) - when i am upbeat, this would be my soundtrack. a lot of my views in life have aligned with this song. "you can choose the high, or lower road." that means a lot to me. this song is filled with quiet hope for me. that close chested, deep breathing kind of comfort is gained when i listen to this song.

a few minutes on friday - makes me shake.

others that i am too lazy to write about at this time, but that mean a great deal to me:
gold mine gutted, down a rabbit hole, ship in a bottle and easy/lucky/free from digital ash. a calendar hung itself and a song to pass the time off fevers and mirrors. first day of my life, poison oak, and at the bottom of everything from wide awake. oh, and two more i need to write about.

i've been eating (for you) - i once told caroline that this is exactly how i felt about her. it still is how i look at that time in my life. it always will. "so you're more like a basketball, boys just pass you around, and dribble, and then we all get high fives." a quiet comfort for my weary soul.

if winter ends - everyday once the temperature drops i hear this song. i sing in quietly to myself and scream it loud at my dashboard. it is appropriately drenched in hopeful melancholy to an extent where it provides comfort. just one of the golden ones.