world of fog.

for the last several minutes i have been absent mindedly staring out my window, enjoying snow covered lights wrapped inside a world of fog. i have become stuck to this exact spot for the moment. there is nothing that seems to be sparking inspiration within my weary head at the current moments.
i suppose this is what one might consider the doldrums. a time of waiting, lodged firmly between to events filled with motion. on the open seas it meant death to sailors for any matter of ailments: scurvy, boredom or any other number of snags waiting to drag down an already weary soul. i am starting to consider the set of circumstances i am currently jammed between as a personal doldrum of sorts.
with the second semester looming heavy on the horizon, the ease of three in the afternoon good mornings will be quickly fleeting in the coming weeks. this is not a habit forming drought of activity. as the world turns and the new year begins, there will be much to accomplish and many faces to find familiar once again.
the new year holds many possibilites for me personally. as i view them right now, the challenges seem daunting. the coming year should be an ever evolving test for all of the knowledge, abilities, and relationships i have gained to this point in my life.
as the year begins, there are immediate challenges that should not prove paramount in difficulty, however, the sheer number of tasks at hand is sometimes a bit overwhelming.
currently, the changing times is proving an obsession that must be carefully attended to. a large quantity of time will be constantly consumed by this publication. with a new format in the works, foreseeable and unforeseeable growing pains, and any other number of concerns hanging in the near future, the project sometimes seems unmanageable. however, i am confident that with the passion inside of myself, the support of others, and the solid framework that has already been laid, i should be toasting a year's worth of issues around this time next year.
also, the starting of the spring semester will bring its own slate of perils: a heavy number of credit hours, a role to maintain as news editor on the paper, and a return to work with the continuation of school should provide a steady and non relenting headache from the time classes start in mid-january until they finish on the first day of may.
homework and the actual course material does not concern me in the slightest. for the first time in my academic career i have carefully chosen my classes, arranging them for what should prove to be a successful schedule. the time constraint should be less of a factor with the open days in the week, paired with the block schedule on the others. this has always helped improve my class attendance, while allowing me the privilege of mobility that i desperately need to keep my soul content.
work will present very few challenges other than grinding out my teeth each month until the last friday for once a month paycheck. this however provides me with the rare opportunity to take charge of my finances in a new way. instead of scraping through for two weeks at a time to pay off debts and make a little something extra, i will have the chance to actually organize a monthly budget and adjust to that type of thinking. this could prove invaluable as i make the transition back out into the real world.
may will provide several challenges. firstly, and most importantly, the move to des moines will be the largest transition of my life. acclimating myself successfully to the capital city i do anticipate to be a difficult task, however it will be vital to my success there. i already have a decent network of friends, i know the city fairly well, and i have pleanty of logic to back up that i do indeed belong there. however, there are always unexpected snags, so hopefully i will be able to handle them with as much grace as possible.
also in the coming year are other great milestones such as: turning twenty one, completeing (and proofing) my first full-scale novel, and many other interesting events. hopefully i am ready for all these things. like i said, this will certainly show me what i am made of.




listening to -
"spinning" - jack's mannequin (the glass passenger)
"the sounds of settling" - death cab for cutie (transatlanticism)
"title and registration" - death cab for cutie (transatlanticism)
"answer" - cartel (chroma)
"question" - cartel (chroma)