topography.

last night i vividly dreamed. i was set upon a mountain, the gray early morning twilight muting the features. for some reason it seemed like the black hills, however, everything was too tall. the landscape was littered with ghosts. they vividly flicked though, across, and over the surrounding mountains and valleys and i watched them intently. inside this dream i found a deep comfort. i realized eventually that i was watching my own life play out across the horizon, a topographical map of my life. there was no behind, it was out of my power to turn around, for in a dream you can only view the things determined for you to see. i felt the slaughtering range of emotions as i traced the separate courses, the ranging possibilities. i saw the highs and lows, felt the ramifications of the fights and neglect that will still take place. in the same instant though i also felt the amazing highs and impossible butterflies that overtake you. my mind raced as my veins surged with the physical, mental, and emotional over powering that was taking place. it was then that i awoke feeling more contented then ever. my mind has shifted now, a new perspective gained. i feel the life back in my limbs, and the weariness that has been overpowering me fleeting. i'm ready to live life again, i'm ready.

listening to -

the wind chimes on the porch soothe the fan in the hallway while my parents discuss college football in another room.